I love you, I miss you, forever mine.

Everyday I think about how much I miss her and how I should never have let her go. Its taboo in our culture to love more than one, but I didn't care. I loved her more than life itself and to spend my life without her kills me a little more inside every single day.

We would always go out and have fun and sometimes I wouldn't return till 2 or 3 AM, People were suspicious of us when we were out on the town but they always saw that she was more than meets the eye, She was special and she made everyone jealous.

The way she felt, the way she hugged me and the way that she made me feel secure at all times. 

We would always go out on Sunny days or Stormy nights and make the most of every single day.

I treated her with respect, I always bought her expensive presents and treated her like a princess. She reciprocated that love with her constant dependability, Compared to others of her kind she was always fun and outgoing and never afraid to get dirty when we wanted to.

Sure, She was loud and she had a deep voice but that didn't deter me and on long journeys together, I never once tired of her voice and I could listen to her for hours.

When I really wound her up and let her go she would always put a smile on my face some would say that she was a bit Chavvy, but they were wrong, they mistook her loud booming voice for a lack of talent but she would always make the rich kids cry when they tried it on.

My time with her was always special and I loved every minute of it and letting her go was the worst decision I made in my life. Some say that you should live without regret and should keep moving forwards but I'll never stop looking back at the loss and what once was.

I miss you and I always will.
I'm sorry for what I did and if I ever find you again I will take have you back with open arms regardless of how many others have been inside you.

Forever yours,
Christopher

xx

P.S 

The pictures of us together below make my heart sink with sadness.